As a mother, I often get bogged down in the day-to-day stuff. Most days I feel very alone – wondering how can I wash the same clothes over and over, how can I clean up the same messes that I’ve told my children not to make, how will I survive the day when it’s only ten o’clock in the morning and my patience is already worn thin, when will I have time to do anything else.
Oh, and try to do everything without scarring my children for life. So often I question myself. Am I talking too much, not enough? Should I explain myself or just say “no.” Do I try and plan an activity for my children or let them amuse themselves? Am I feeding them right? Am I being frugal? Am I making them feel loved even though I feel like I’m YELLING all the time? Will they grow confident in their abilities? Will they learn enough since I’m homeschooling? Tell me again why I’m homeschooling!? Will they become good people? Will other people like them? Will I ever get any sleep? Can I stand wiping another runny nose today? Am I worrying too much?!
The list goes on and on…
Just today I was telling Phil that there are times – like when you’re looking out at the vast ocean, seeing a beautiful sunset, even witnessing something tragic like the Boston bombings – when you’re able to put everything into perspective. Sometimes it really hits me – my life is just a little blip on a timeline and I want it to count; in the grand scheme of things these little every day challenges aren’t a big deal. Even more so, I should be grateful for them! But when you’re in the midst of them – when you’re trying to sleep at two o’clock in the morning and your 3-month old is awake all you care about is getting sleep! – it’s hard to keep your head in the game. When your kids have been playing tag team all day, taking turns fighting and complaining, it certainly doesn’t feel like a good place to be.
I saw this video on New Nostalgia, one of the blogs I frequent. It reminded me that being a mom is one of the best jobs there is; it may not be the easiest, but it’s the most rewarding.
Lisa-Jo Baker also has some free printable bookmarks to go along with this video.
And being a mom has made me appreciate my own mom – and mothers everywhere – so much more.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mamas out there!